I'm sorry for putting everyone through this, and dragging you into all this. None of you deserve to be a part of this, and I feel like this should never have to happen. But I wanted to take this time to write a journal and explain some things.
This is the reason why I left deviantart, and probably why no one will ever see me again after this journal.
A person who I cared deeply about has just deleted his account. I don't know why. I don't know why he has blocked me, or prevented me from saying anything to him all this time, or even why I have been prevented from even paying my respects to someone close who has died. I don't know what it is